= Leave me alone? =

Yes..
Everyone did that..
Even though most of my friends did this..
Sorry..
I don't know these parts..
Treat me as friends or not?
Or maybe just treat me like..
Familiar-Stranger?

I think most of them maybe have dialog of this..
Your Friend: Do you know something about her?
You: Erm.. She use to be my classmate last year..
Your Friend: So?
You: I probably not talking to her..
        She seem so quietly and serious..
Your Friend: Okay.. So you did know something about her..
                    Her name..

Fine..
Actually we sure can call this friend if you want to..
But this kind for me is..
Familiar-Stranger at all..

I know I'm quiet at class..
Doesn't meant that I can not to mention by anyone..
I'm not a Studying Robot..
Or..
Remote-Controlled Robot..

I think..
This quote did inspired me sonething..
:" When your friends found a new friend..
   They'll as friends as them and you..
   Weather the period long or short..

Is this right?
This kind of friend did mention me?
Or they just treat me like..
Backup-Friends?
When the "MainFriend" doesn't go on school..
No one partner with you..
Then you'll start thinking who can replace it..

But did you think about how's the feeling?
It could be very .... weirdo..
I don't know how to describe it..
Just like Unfair or Jealous??
Argh!!
I just can't describe it..
You need to feel it yourself..
Its awkward when your..
NewFriend and friend are beside you..
You used to cared about..
Your NewFriend first..

I got this feelings again and again..
It just make me feel like..
I'm the Backups..
Or..
Someone only need help will remember me..
When finish help..
Just "throw" you away..
What are these people think of me?
No one of them will think I'm sure..

Luckily was..
I still got some friends..
Just few of them..
Treat me as a RealFriend I think..
Cause I can feel it and..
My hope I didn't sense Wrong..

Sometimes you think that..
This girl can Handle everything..
No need to worry about..
Or..
You can trick her..
She maybe will angry but just a while..
Is that Really was?
Is she really takes down the trick..
I guess not..
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For me..
Through this day already Stressed..
Add on mix-feelings..
I can say..
I'd already think several times of that..
Of What?
Suicidal Thoughts..
Guess I should still be quiet at class..
Talk no more to people..
Do the way of Robot..
That's all ..
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Exam will be start on next Tuesday..
Already work on Revision..
Days Days Days..
Please faster move on to Holidays..
I need rest =3=
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Olly-Olly-Oxen-Free =)
From 13 Reasons Why..
Still run on this book..
This book is just interesting..
And this book did inspired me a lot..

Well that's it !
Done blogging..

SW.HorYan
18.10
02/03/2012